To my one & only. To u, Crystal

I've been doing lots of self-reflection lately... & i've been wondering if everything's alrdy too late to savage or nt?

Crystal doesn't resist the past in which i used to be with her. no matter how bad i've treated her, she was always right by my side all the time. She accepts everything in the past and lives firmly in the present. To me, who wanted to redo what i did in the past and make things right all over, crystal's innocence is too bright, which hurts me even more.

For almost 1 & a half years, the happy times, the sad times, the painful times, were all spent with crystal. i truely felt tad i was the only one who cld bring her happiness. the crystal who wld start sulking whenever i dont reply her msgs. the crystal who wld get angry whenever i stared and commented on how nice or how good other girls on the streets were. the stubborn crystal who wld always skip meals & yet tells me to have mine on time so tad i wldnt suffer frm gastric pain. i am the one who knows her best. the crystal who looks strong on the outside but is actually very sensitive. the crystal who always puts herself in second place, caring for me more than herself. the crystal who has always been by my side. the one who needed her the most, was me. But in the end, i kept all these thoughts in my heart. i was never honest in front of her. she was always by my side... the things i thought i cld say anytime... i never got to say them even once.